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2017-09-07 09:46 pm

Thoughtful Action 2017

Thoughtful Action – 2016.09.26
Thoughtful Action seems to me to be a fairly broad category. Thoughtful action is deliberately and meaningfully doing something. This is as opposed to reactive behavior or instinctive behavior. This can be as simple as doing something for someone just to please that person or it can be choosing to not drive a vehicle to reduce your carbon footprint. The chosen actions have been deliberately thought about and often times are choices which go against the human nature of selfishness or self-preservation. Examples of thoughtful action can be positive In nature as well as negative. Not only can a family plan a surprise party for a family member coming home from deployment, but a heartbroken parent may thoughtfully and deliberately plan to maim or kill a rapist of their child. The majority of people do not make plans and take charge of the events in their lives. They allow the world to happen to them or they react to whatever life throws at them. Most people are just surviving. I am tired of just surviving. I have chosen to take steps towards the improvement of my physical and mental self. I am fortunate to have met someone like you who has started their journey before me who can nudge me in the right direction. I think, perhaps, that in order to have thoughtful action, one must be open minded. It is important to consider more than what only benefits the self, but to think about how our actions affect others. A great way to show affection for someone is to show thoughtful actions toward them. Things like going out of your way to make a special dinner to celebrate a birthday or having a hot bath drawn for your partner after a particularly rough day at work are considered thoughtful affectionate actions.
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2017.09.07
As I read the words above, I vaguely remember writing them. I stumbled upon this file this evening when going through the open windows on my desktop. Perhaps universe is trying to remind me so I can find the path again. I’ve been feeling disoriented and without direction. I don’t have a strong idea of where I want to go. I’ve felt this feeling of reluctance to give up my old self-destructive ways although I know I should be making healthier choices. I resort to the familiar. I resort to comfort. I resort to the known and routine behavior patterns.
It’s not that I’m not doing things. For goodness sake, I’m in Salt Lake City, Utah right now deciding if getting my CDL is going to be right for me. I’m going places. I’m just missing something. I’m not unhappy. In general I’m in good spirits. But I don’t have passion and drive and focus for that THING. That elusive IT that I am meant to be. I try new things and experience all sorts of wonderful events. I am most definitely a positive person. I feel like I should be making money as an entrepreneur, a business person. But WHAT? I would like to have 500 acres in the middle of the Pacific Northwest and own and operate a family summer camp. I would like to have coffee carts that sell black rifle coffee and give away free coffee to all on duty military and civil service personnel. I would like to have a line of dog clothing and accessories designed specifically for larger dogs. I would like to publish a quarterly magazine with practice pieces of music to play at the park and help educate all age groups. I have all these IDEAS but I don’t have the resources to be able to launch. How do I get from A to B?

To manage my time
I must balance and focus;
Meditate and breathe.
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2017-07-10 10:35 pm

My goal is to rise to the challenge

My life has been a whirlwind of change. These last few months I have been continuing to challenge myself physically. I've been exercising regularly at the gym and have trained for and ran not only a 5k fun run, but a 10k. I have very mixed emotions about these accomplishments. While I recognize them as being something that the average Joe doesn't do, I don't feel that my running these events is all that special. There were a LOT of people at these events. I am not unique. Awesome. You ran a 10k, but so did all these other people. I felt especially not special when an older woman with obvious osteoporosis passed me. I am super proud of myself for continuing to rise to the challenge. My next goal is to run the Spartan race in August. I've been hitting the gym a lot harder this last week. I'm really feeling the crunch of the event looming over my shoulder. I will push aside my fear and prepare for the event. I have been thinking about re-posting my 101/1001 list which has expired. I have a certain wonderful man in my life who keeps asking me about this list. This is no easy task for me. It too will wait for another night for tomorrow I have an interview with Portland Center Stage. It'll be posted soon.
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2017-05-21 09:03 pm

Why do I find writing so daunting?

I find it difficult to put thought to words. Some would find this an easy task. Me, not so. I procrastinate on this one. I always have. I've never enjoyed creative writing. I'm unsure of why this seemingly simple task is so daunting to me. List making. Thought to words. I keep thinking I aught to update my journal but then the thought becomes overwhelming. I never know where to start or what to put to words. It feels like I just spew words into paragraphs, this awkward writing style I have. I write a few lines and then get tired. So then I put the computer away and nothing ever seems to get posted. And what does get posted is just a teensy weensy little snippet of what has been going on in my world because I don't have the attention span to get it written down. So then... what's my issue? Attention span? Planning? Forethought? Awareness? Preparedness? Tiredness? Commitment? What is it that I actually give a damn about? What do I want to do from here on out? My brain just answered "Train". Train. I seem to be afraid of success. Because I'm afraid of failing I am apprehensive of seriously committing to training. Success doesn't come without the risk of failure. I feel like I'm flailing and want to have someone take me by the hand and do with me the steps to success. But then I think if I think that way I'm part of the problem. Blindly being led. Sheep mentality. I want to be challenged and I'm afraid at the same time.
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2017-02-16 09:01 pm

Mid-winter update

Here we are in the middle of winter. Time for another update. I have been working on my training for the Spartan Race in August. I've been going to the gym regularly and attending yoga classes, mostly on Mondays. Last Wednesday I accompanied my friend to my first guided meditation at the Heart of Wisdom Zen Temple. I very much enjoyed this and am looking forward to going to more sessions. I enjoyed discussing the topic of the evening which was "Freedom". There were many good perspectives to take into consideration. The Monday of last week I was in a "half-moon" position and I over-arched my back too far which caused my lower coxic area to come out of alignment. I've been working with my physical therapist and today a chiropractor and acupuncturist to help get this situation resolved. I came down with a sudden flu/cold Monday night, Tuesday morning. I didn't go to work Tuesday or Wednesday because I have been feeling so crummy.

Tuesday, however, was Valentine's Day. I don't normally celebrate this Hallmark holiday. But, I was asked out on a "non" date. A friend of mine recently went through a break up and he asked me if I wanted to go with him to a show that he had tickets for. He came over early and gave me a massage and then took me to dinner, Pho, and then we went to the show. The "Mystery Box Theater" where stories are told by story tellers on the topic of sex. This performance had 5 story tellers who all had very different personal stories from fairly funny and mundane to disturbing and/or kinky. One performer had a story about her struggle with "herpes". This one resonated with me and I felt myself identifying with her. Another performer had a story about his life and his crash course in dominance. This was an emotional story that allowed me to understand how the behavior can be learned and emulated. All in all I had a lovely time... but I was still sick. I called in to work the next day as well.

I've been enjoying traveling more. I have completed my first McMennamin's Passport. What this means is that I now get a set of concert tickets and three free hotel nights at any one of their hotel locations. I'm excited to be able to have some little asset built up. I'd like to use it for a fun evening out with a partner on a nice vacation type trip. It's pretty awesome that they accept dogs at their locations. There is a per day non-refundable fee for each dog though. And I am running on fumes financially. I'm contemplating selling some of my stock so that I can get a good price for it before the economy busts again. How long will bank stock be up? If I do, it will give me a little more wiggle room for getting another job.

I'm not REALLY happy working for Nautilus. Don't get me wrong, I like the company. I like the people. I don't like the work I'm doing. I'm more of a hands on and keep moving kind of person. What I'm doing now is call center work. I'm in front of a desk tethered to my phone for hours upon end. I am not an essential player. I don't have a well defined role other than "pawn". I'm not really needed. I'm not feeling the love to come to work every day. So... I'm looking elsewhere.

I'm writing this with a head cold and I'm not totally with it. I think I sound like I'm just rambling. Perhaps so. But, that's okay. At least I'm making an attempt at putting words to paper. I'd like to be able to read about things I did 10 years ago by reviewing my journals. The only way I can do that is by actually writing about them. I fear that I'm going to lose my memories as I age. I already have a tendency to "forget" things. So... write them down....

I've been a bit out of focus lately. My friend gave me some more information on the Heart of Wisdom Zen Temple's Full Moon Meta Guided Meditations every full moon. I'd like to add this to my spiritual routines. I've been feeling a disconnect on a spiritual level. Perhaps it's time to reconnect with the mother and ask her for some guidance.

I've been helping another friend every week by administering his testosterone shots for him. In trade he has been working by performing reflexology or reiki. We have been having supper and also watching an episode of a BBC series called Poldark. Very awesome period drama. We are only 5 episodes in at this point. I believe there are 2 full seasons out to watch now. Gives us something to do together that doesn't cost an arm and a leg. He recently lost a job and I'm on a lean budget.

My romantic relationships have been a bit strained with scheduling conflicts and distance. Friend 1 is way too far away and is looking for work. Friend 2 I have no idea what she's been up to. She doesn't even seem to want to reach out to me. I've been the only one reaching out for months on end. After 16 years though, I'm sure we just need some good re-connection time. Maybe I'll use a room night up in the Seattle area with her. And Friend 3, well, he's just a different story altogether. Warrior, Friend, Lover, Education partner and Spiritual partner? This is not the best arena to tell stories about him as he reads this.

Hmmm... anything else to update on? Nothing else that I can think of right now. I'll just sign off for now. Until later...
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2017-01-24 08:31 pm

Body is sore, body is alive

Since the middle of October I have had a goal to run in the Portland Spartan Race in August 2017. I have been training separately and with a friend. I have made a commitment to work out in the company gym at least 4 days a week during my hour lunch. I've also started logging my water intake on the fitbit app. The fitbit has been a fun tool to use to automatically track my exercise and record my sleeping patterns. I have a goal to sleep at least 7 hours per night. My average for the week is 6 hours and 18 minutes. I also have a daily step goal of 10,000 steps per day and an exercise goal of 5 days per week. My work is starting a fitness passport program and I weighed in last Wednesday at 218.8. There is a weekly weigh-in on Wednesdays that I will record my progress on my fitbit as well. My weight really hasn't changed much in the last 2 months. I'm hovering right around 220 since mid November. The good thing though is that my size is changing. I can visibly tell my muscles are getting larger. Looking in the mirror today I noticed that my belly now has dimples around the belly button. My apron is starting to get a little smaller and I can see more of my lady bits. My left calf is still giving me issues. I've been going to physical therapy once a week for the last few weeks now. It seems to be helping it overall, but I'm not clear yet. Any jogging I do I am supposed to wear compression sleeves on my legs. At first this felt rather silly. They are like wearing knee high socks and remind me of my childhood. But after I used them, I now see why this is becoming a popular thing to do. The compression really does help. I'm looking forward to running in the Shamrock Run in Portland on March 19th. I've been warned by a few people that this race is generally held on a miserable wet north-west winter kind of day and to be prepared for cold and wet running conditions. I've also been told this is one of the most heavily attended races in the city and people and teams have a ton of fun. I look forward to my first race. My gym workouts are now incorporating cardio and strength training. I'm working towards the goal of being able to climb a rope. I've never done this before. I've also never been able to do an unassisted chin up. I'm going to need to be able to do these for the Spartan. I've been working with a machine to do assisted chin-ups and dips. The beginning of December I was at a 185 lb assist. I'm now working with a 150 lb assist. Not bad. Progress, little by gradual. I just gotta keep doing it and stay focused on what I need to do. I've been trying to be mindful of what I consume. I've been drinking more and more water. I'm still having a hard time with not drinking a daily low-carb monster and coffee. I'm struggling with reading. I went to the eye doctor and was given the option to do have surgery now or later. I have a Posterior Polar Cataract which poses some issues in removal as the cataract has adhered to the membrane that separates the lens from the gel inside of the eye. If the cataract is removed, the membrane ruptures and requires an artificial barrier to be placed between. This can be a tricky procedure. So, anyhow, lots going on. I thought an update was overdue.
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2017-01-08 07:18 pm
Entry tags:

101/1001 - 906/1001

101 Goals in 1001 Days - Day 906/1001, 3 months and 5 days or 95 days remaining - My Goal List - Started July 17, 2014 end April 13, 2017

140 days since my last update

Quite a bit has happened in the last few months. Moving from Michigan to Oregon has been a whirlwind. I have made quite a bit of progress with my life and am enjoying the way I am moving it. I’m finding the power of intention to be fantastic. I have taken quite a bit of personal responsibility of myself and my world and I am continually striving to make improvements in my life. Doing my best, every day. I have 95 days left to complete this log and to create an entirely new list. Reading through and updating this list tonight has been helpful. I reflect upon all the progress I have made in 2 years and 10 months. I earned my bachelor’s degree! I moved out of Michigan! I don’t have children with me anymore! I’m finally getting fit! In March 2016 I topped the scales at 264. Today I am 218. I’ve held steady at that number for about 2 weeks now but I know I’m gaining muscle and loosing fat as my size continues to decrease. There are quite a few of the tasks on this list that are no longer applicable. I will be auditing and posting a new and improved second list by April 14th. I feel like a completely different person than who I was when I began this list. I was unhappy and feeling stuck in Michigan and ending an unhealthy and draining relationship. By taking a step back from myself and taking a good look at what I have been doing with my life and where I was going was one of the best things I could have ever done. I have a thoughtful person in my life who has been pointing me towards the way of the warrior and teaching me with baby steps and little suggestions here and there. I feel empowered to succeed. I am working on training my mind as well as my body. Steps towards training my soul will also be on my nest list.

By the grace of the world I have entered into an awesome roommate situation. I’m in a unique partnership position with two interesting men, one here and one still in Michigan. I’ve started work as a temp with Nautilus, Inc. and work in the Bowflex call center. I get to visit with my daughter every 2nd and 4th weekend of the month. I have two dogs who love me. I have registered for my first 5k, the Shamrock Run in Portland on March 19th (ironically my 2nd wedding anniversary) and got an awesome gift of registration for the Spartan Race, an obstacle race and run in August 2017. This is part of what I am doing towards my 101 goal to participate in a triathlon. I received an awesome DPMS AR-15 for Festivus from Michigan Partner as well as a Lock Pick training tool and entry to the Spartan Race from my Oregon friend. I am enjoying how I can live independently and jointly with people and there are no hurt feelings or feelings of jealousy when I want to spend time away from them, not having a serious committed relationship and I'm enjoying getting the beatings I'm asking for. I'm working really hard and realize that often times there is pain in progress. It's a welcome pain. I'm doing it to myself and I realize that only I have the power to change me.

101/1001

1 reactivate lj account
2 maintain lj updates at least 2 separate days per week (2/143)
3 come up with 101 valid goals
4 continaue to not smoke cigarettes - Quit date was 11/15/14.
5 return to school to get my bachelors degree - (graduated 5/14/2016)
6 apply for 5 scholarships/grants for 2015 school year - (0/5) No longer applicable
7 finish bachelor’s degree in 5 semesters - finished in 4 semesters
8 maintain at least 3.0 gpa each semester - (4/4) GPA 3.9275
9 improve sleeping habits
10 maintain wheat free diet - no longer applicable
11 be true and honest with myself - in progress
12 work on self esteem issues - in progress
13 find a mental health counselor
14 get thyroid meds regulated
15 loose 50 lbs. - current weight 218 1/8/17, 255 8/21/16, 243 7/25/16
16 taekwondo classes 2x per week - stopped for school 9/2015 - resumed 7/2016-9/2016
17 install lighting in bedroom
18 install switches and lighting in pantry
19 install plugs and lighting in garage - 4/2016
20 insulate garage walls - 7/2015
21 tape and mud drywall upstairs
22 texture drywall upstairs
23 paint drywall upstairs
24 address water in garage when rains. 7/2015
25 finish closets upstairs x2
26 install new handrail on stairs - rail purchased
27 install 1x8 on ledge above stairs
28 research plumbing requirements for 2nd bath - rough plumbing quoted 10/2015
29 create bathroom upstairs
30 install new flooring downstairs main room
31 level out the front yard
32 go bicycle riding 2x per week May - October
33 go at least 1 night per week without viewing/posting to social media - in progress
34 backup and organize my music files 1/2016
35 backup and organize my photo files 1/2016
36 backup and organize all other files 1/2016
37 create an emergency preparedness kit - BOB created 10/2015; updated 5/2016
38 attend red cross training for cpr & first aid
39 save enough money for 6 months bills
40 call grandmothers every week
41 Complete 1 year in band. - 2 years completed
42 Play the bass clarinet 1st chair
43 Practice the FlyLady habit of the month (currently Swish & Swipe)
44 Go through All my things and get rid of anything I haven't used in 2 years or isn't heirloom/sentimental. - purged clothing 7/2016
45 plant lilies in the south ditch Lilies planted, but didn't survive the winter.
46 remove 3 dead trees from yard
47 take legal steps to assume property to the north- in progress. Visited County Assessors office for more information and property maps. Referred to Eaton County Courts for further information
48 Go to bed by 12:00 for 1 weeks (/52)
49 Save for and purchase new to me car outright.
50 achieve red belt ATA - currently green
51 Plant/Harvest ghost peppers
52 Save & label seeds for next years planting. 8+ vegetable plants. (1/2)
53 Get small tiller for 2015
54 Get new push mower - got a riding mower instead 3/2016
55 Establish a mow free ditch system for in front of house (plants, mulch, ground cover?)
56 Establish craft room/extra bedroom. Bed, dresser, shelves, sewing table, radio, extra lights.
57 Install flooring upstairs, on stairs, & in pantry - Installed 10/2015
58 Repair back door. Needs to close properly.
59 Install lighting in pantry
60 install insulated vegetable grow area in garage for winter starts
61 Install heater for addition - using electric oil heaters
62 Breathe-in progress
63 make the Dean's list All 4 semesters - 5/2016
64 garage sale extra stuff in garage - 8/2015
65 get new brush roller for Kirby - Replaced Kirby with a Rainbow
66 take foreign language Spanish or other French? Manderin?
67 get a new laptop - 9/2015
68 listen to the Hicks/Abraham album given to me
69 complete SBDC counselling and start business
70 save $10,000 for move
71 move to Portland
72 spay & chip Pepper
73 run a 5k - registered for Shamrock Race 3/19/17
74 memorize 4 forms = (edited removed ATA)
75 learn to kayak
76 go on 10 hikes - in progress. Tualatin Nature Preserve
77 learn to rappel
78 learn spanish
79 learn french
80 learn basics of knot work
81 learn basics of suspension
82 learn bow-staff
83 compete in a triathlon - in progress. I have registered for the Shamrock Run on March 19th. Participating with Grim and the Nautilus team.
84 practice more meditation
85 learn to fire a rifle = in progress. AR-15 received from Jim as Christmas gift
86 learn larger caliber weapons - in progress. AR-15 received from Jim as Christmas gift
87 practice ax throwing
88 learn more about the history of Grim
89 Learn and practice tantra
90 sort garage
91 sort kitchen
92 sort craft room
93 sort bathroom
94 sort back closet
95 sort electronics
96 sort linens
97 sort shed
98 service bicycles
99 get piece for roof rack
100 install auto parts
101 yard sale
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2016-08-21 09:46 pm

101/1001 Update Time

101 Goals - Day 767/1001 - My Goal List - Started July 17, 2014 end April 13, 2017

These last four weeks have been filled with getting ready for the next stage in my life. I am moving to the Portland, Oregon area in September. I have undergone what I like to call a "purge". I have accumulated so much stuff since moving to Michigan. I can't believe that I have been here for five years. Time flies. My mother came up from Indianapolis this weekend to see Heather off and to take Ian shopping for college stuff. My mother spoils him rotten. So much stuff. I'm tired of having so much stuff. I'm looking forward to having a yard sale Labor Day weekend. Hopefully I can earn enough to get me by for a while. I have some furniture that I can put out that will bring in a few more dollars. I need to sell two vehicles. A 97 toyota camry and a 2005 ford explorer. Both have issues. Hope I can sell them. I need to vacuum and detail them this week so I can get them listed by Friday. Lots to do. Ian wants me to go with him tomorrow to buy his books. I think it's sweet. He said he was disappointed in me because I am leaving for Portland so soon. He wants me to stay until he is done with his first year of college, just in case. I'm so ready to not have to worry about him every day. I am proud of the young man he has become. I know he will succeed. He also has his grandmother close by if anything happens that needs attention right away. I need to be closer to Heather and to my friends and family. Soon. Judis will be here September 11th. I will finish packing and we will be on the road as soon as possible from that point on. 21 days. 3 weeks. It will be here before I know it. I have been pining for the Pacific Northwest for years now. The time is finally upon me. Nervous and excited. I'm going to step into a whole new phase of my life. Pick up and move. I can do it. I got this. I've wanted this for so long.


1 reactivate lj account
2 maintain lj updates at least 2 separate days per week (1/143)
3 come up with 101 valid goals (in progress)
4 continue to not smoke cigarettes - Quit date was 11/15/14.
5 return to school to get my bachelors degree (graduated 5/14/2016)
6 apply for 5 scholarships/grants for 2015 school year (0/5)
7 finish bachelor’s degree in 5 semesters finished in 4 semesters
8 maintain at least 3.0 gpa each semester (4/4) GPA 3.9275
9 improve sleeping habits
10 maintain wheat free diet
11 be true and honest with myself
12 work on self esteem issues
13 find a mental health counselor
14 get thyroid meds regulated
15 loose 50 lbs. current weight 255 - current weight 243 7/25/16
16 taekwondo classes 2x per week - stopped for school 9/2015 - resumed 7/2016
17 install lighting in bedroom
18 install switches and lighting in pantry
19 install plugs and lighting in garage - 4/2016
20 insulate garage walls - 7/2015
21 tape and mud drywall upstairs
22 texture drywall upstairs
23 paint drywall upstairs
24 address water in garage when rains. 7/2015
25 finish closets upstairs x2
26 install new handrail on stairs - rail purchased
27 install 1x8 on ledge above stairs
28 research plumbing requirements for 2nd bath - rough plumbing quoted 10/2015
29 create bathroom upstairs
30 install new flooring downstairs main room
31 level out the front yard
32 go bicycle riding 2x per week May - October
33 go at least 1 night per week without viewing/posting to social media -
34 backup and organize my music files 1/2016
35 backup and organize my photo files 1/2016
36 backup and organize all other files 1/2016
37 create an emergency preparedness kit and plan BOB created 10/2015; updated 5/2016
38 attend red cross training for cpr & first aid
39 save enough money for 6 months bills
40 call grandmothers every week
41 Complete 1 year in band 2 years completed
42 Play the bass clarinet 1st chair
43 Practice the FlyLady habit of the month (currently Swish & Swipe)
44 Go through All my things and get rid of anything I haven't used in 2 years or isn't heirloom/sentimental. - purged clothing 7/2016
45 plant lilies in the south ditch Lilies planted, but didn't survive the winter.
46 remove 3 dead trees from yard
47 take legal steps to assume property to the north
48 Go to bed by 12:00 for 1 weeks (0/52)
49 Save for and purchase new to me car outright.
50 achieve red belt ATA - currently green
51 Plant/Harvest ghost peppers
52 Save & label seeds for next years planting. 8+ vegetable plants. (1/2)
53 Get small tiller for 2015
54 Get new push mower - got a riding mower instead 3/2016
55 Establish a mow free ditch system for in front of house (plants, mulch, ground cover?)
56 Establish craft room/extra bedroom. Bed, dresser, shelves, sewing table, radio, extra lights.
57 Install flooring upstairs, on stairs, & in pantry - Installed 10/2015
58 Repair back door. Needs to close properly.
59 Install lighting in pantry
60 install insulated vegetable grow area in garage for winter starts
61 Install heater for addition - using electric oil heaters
62 Breathe
63 make the Dean's list All 4 semesters - 5/2016
64 garage sale extra stuff in garage - 8/2015
65 get new brush roller for Kirby - Replaced Kirby with a Rainbow
66 take foreign language Spanish or other French? Manderin?
67 get a new laptop - 9/2015
68 listen to the Hicks/Abraham album given to me
69 complete SBDC counselling and start business
70 save $10,000 for move
71 move to Portland
72 spay & chip Pepper
73 run a 5k
74 memorize 4 ATA forms
75 learn to kayak
76 go on 10 hikes
77 learn to rappel
78 learn spanish
79 learn french
80 learn basics of knotwork
81 learn basics of suspension
82 learn bow-staff
83 compete in a triathlon
84 practice more meditatin
85 learn to fire a rifle
86 learn larger caliber weapons
87 practice ax throwing
88 learn more about the history of Grim
89 Learn and practice tantra
90 sort garage
91 sort kitchen
92 sort craft room
93 sort bathroom
94 sort back closet
95 sort electronics
96 sort linens
97 sort shed
98 service bicycles
99 get piece for roof rack
100 install auto parts
101 yard sale
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2016-07-10 05:33 am

Haiku

To describe events
I choose words with meaning
In proper sequence.
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2016-07-10 05:19 am

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It's am here in Olivet. All is well. Home at 1230 yesterday. Slept for hours. Now, of course, I can't sleep.

I had fun with hair. My tattoo artist, Rowan, had braids in her hair and I just fell in love with them. Thought I would research and do them myself. Most of my time while I was a passenger, I was processing and braiding my hair with fun yarn. My daughter, Heather, helped me part it and verify I had all the hair for the braid in my grasp.

We went shopping tonight after dinner at Applebee's and I found this fantastic textured yarn. I incorporated it into the top half of my scalp. The hard part is the sectioning and then the first braid.

Yay. I'm nearly done with it. I still need to finish the ends. Fun. Would be so much easier to do in other people's hair though. Not sure how long I will be able to keep them in my hair. Job search coming up.

Vacation was WONDERFUL. I have the best friends in the world. I am blessed. I saw wonderful sights, connected with people, enjoyed wonderful energy, exercised my body, mind, and soul, and, best of all, enjoyed myself. I should write more about it... Later.

For now, I think I could take a nap. Hair is all wrapped up in a satin wrap designed as a hairstyle saver. It slides on the pillow and prevents breakage. The braids are so new they are pulling on the scalp. It is a bit uncomfortable. Good thing I am a masochist. That will ease soon as the hair grows out a bit.
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2016-07-06 12:14 am

Vacation is coming to a close

It has been a whirlwind of a time in Cascadia. I miss home with every fiber of my being. I have had a lot of outdoor time with good friends and partners like vivane666, Grim, and Judis we went everywhere from beckler ridge to Snoqualmie then to the ape caves and Mount St. Helens. Geocaching. It's a thing. I picked up a travel bug to take to Michigan. Lots of photos to show Jim. Training. Service. Tai Chi. Mindfulness. Situational Awareness. Lots of experiences. I can't wait to move back.
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2016-05-29 12:55 pm

The Summit

I went to an adult event in Lansing last night. I made several aquaintances and started some fast friendships. I look forward to seeing them all again.



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2016-05-27 08:16 am

Sooooo Excited!!!

I have a surprise for my west coast friends!!! You will see soon enough!!!
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2016-05-23 12:11 am

Insert random poem here:

utterly broken
I start gently down the trail
with time, I am whole

– by Lizzie Sager
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2016-05-11 07:25 am

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It has been way too long since I have visited by 101/1001 list. I have updated what I have completed. I still need to add more items, but I have run out of time for the moment.

101 Goals - Day 664/1001 - My Goal List - Started July 17, 2014

1 reactivate lj account
2 maintain lj updates at least 2 separate days per week (1/143)
3 come up with 101 valid goals (in progress)
4 continue to not smoke cigarettes - Quit date was 11/15/14.
5 return to school to get my bachelors degree (graduating 5/14/2016)
6 apply for 5 scholarships/grants for 2015 school year (0/5)
7 finish bachelors degree in 5 semesters finished in 4 semesters
8 maintain at least 3.0 gpa each semester (4/4) GPA 3.9275
9 improve sleeping habits
10 maintain wheat free diet
11 be true and honest with myself
12 work on self esteem issues
13 find a mental health counselor
14 get thyroid meds regulated
15 loose 50 lbs. current weight 255
16 taekwondo classes 2x per week
17 install lighting in bedroom
18 install switches and lighting in pantry
19 install plugs and lighting in garage
20 insulate garage walls
21 tape and mud drywall upstairs
22 texture drywall upstairs
23 paint drywall upstairs
24 address water in garage when rains. Door seal?
25 finish closets upstairs x2
26 install new handrail on stairs - rail purchased
27 install 1x8 on ledge above stairs
28 research plumbing requirements for 2nd bath
29 create bathroom upstairs
30 install new flooring downstairs main room
31 level out the front yard
32 go bicycle riding 2x per week May - October
33 go at least 1 night per week without viewing/posting to social media
34 backup and organize my music files
35 backup and organize my photo files
36 backup and organize all other files
37 create an emergency preparedness kit and plan BOB created 10/2015
38 attend red cross training for cpr & first aid
39 save enough money for 6 months bills
40 call grandmothers every week
41 Complete 1 year in band 2 years completed
42 Play the bass clarinet 1st chair
43 Practice the FlyLady habit of the month (currently Swish & Swipe)
44 Go through All my things and get rid of anything I haven't used in 2 years or isn't heirloom/sentimental.
45 plant lilies in the south ditch Lilies planted, but didn't survive the winter.
46 remove 3 dead trees from yard
47 take legal steps to assume property to the north
48 Go to bed by 12:00 for 1 weeks (0/52)
49 Save for and purchase new to me car outright.
50 achieve red belt
51 Plant/Harvest ghost peppers
52 Save & label seeds for next years planting. 8+ vegetable plants. (0/2)
53 Get small tiller for 2015
54 Get new push mower
55 Establish a mow free ditch system for in front of house (plants, mulch, ground cover?)
56 Establish craft room/extra bedroom. Bed, dresser, shelves, sewing table, radio, extra lights.
57 Install flooring upstairs, on stairs, & in pantry Installed 10/2015
58 Repair back door. Needs to close properly.
59 Install lighting in pantry
60 install insulated vegetable grow area in garage for winter starts
61 Install heater for addition
62 Breathe
63 make the Dean's list All 4 semesters
64 garage sale extra stuff in garage
65 get new brush roller for Kirby Replaced Kirby with a Rainbow
66 take foreign language Spanish or other French? Manderin?
67 get a new laptop
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bluepepper: (Default)
2016-05-02 02:19 pm

Where to go from here?

So I'm graduating college with my Bachelors of Arts in Business Administration with a focus in Management. Boy, that's a mouthful. But what does that really mean? It means I have worked hard to learn about the ins and outs of the business world and how to run an effective business in our global economy. Now, why did I choose this degree? I found that it was the most comprehensive of the courses offered which focus on what I need to know for my entrepreneurial endeavors. There are a couple of business ideas that I have which I feel will help feed my passion for helping people, continual education, and providing a service to our society.

Now that I have the education, the ideas and the desire, how do I manifest what I want? Right now it comes down to money and partnership. Money... always money... sigh.
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2016-04-22 03:04 pm

What?! I'm done?!

Holy wow! I did it! My last exam completed. All that is left now are two wind ensemble practices, baccalaureate, practice and commencement.

What's next?
bluepepper: (Default)
2016-04-20 07:33 am
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4!

Hi all. Wish me luck.
Ready or not, here I come!
Yeah! I can do it!
bluepepper: (Default)
2016-04-19 12:33 pm
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Really, stop it!

Why are you being
self defeatist? Seriously.
Get it together!